What is this feeling

"Let's just say - I loathe it all!
Every little trait however small
Makes my very flesh begin to crawl
With simple utter loathing.
There's a strange exhilaration
In such total detestation
It's so pure, so strong.
Though I do admit it came on fast,
Still I do believe that it can last.
And I will be loathing, loathing you
My whole life long!"

Hi! Lately I've been listening to Wicked songs again and this on is my favorite at the moment! <3
This is supposed to be Trevor as Glinda and Myself as Elphaba.

This was mostly to work on my ref and make trevor one.... shh.